Reflection

A month I will never forget...a month that led into pure bliss.  Something so unexpected yet so amazing at the same time.  People walk into your life for a reason.  Something I have believed for a long time.  I got the clarity I needed in November and then him...watching him walk down that sidewalk talking to me on the phone trying to find out where we were located.  Seeing the smile on his face after waiting forever it seems to finally meet in person even if it was a quick trip there for the weekend.  Just one of those moments you will never forget.  Our 1st kiss by the bathroom after hanging out at the bar and playing trivia.  He shared things with me and I saw the real and true side of him.  The loving, caring, happy, fun, good-hearted, adorable all around great guy.  Things were complicated.  He feels stuck in his current situation.  He is miserable but is afraid to hurt her because she has been a friend for years and thats all he sees her as although she thinks differently.  He doesnt fight her on it...he just goes along with it.  Two weeks go by and back I go.  He stops by the hotel to see me after work, it's late and it's our 1st time seeing each other alone, without a soul around.  I'm in awe of this guy...he makes me feel like I am one of a kind.  Sugarpop...thats what he calls me.  It is cute.  Saturday we have a date.  He made me a mix cd.  Talking non-stop, sitting across the table holding hands forever.  We walked everywhere, laughed, played, ran, bar hopped, danced, hugged, kissed, loved, dreamed...Sunday I leave and back to life again.  Texting until all hours of the morning.  He is my good mornings and good nights.  Phone calls on his way to work, phone calls when he gets off.  Those got me through the days of missing him.  Trips planned every 2 weeks, sometimes 3.  We shed tears together...tears of joy, love, confusion, happiness.  A connection neither one of us expected or planned.  I finally could be my true self around someone and him the same.  We saw a shooting star...it was a sign.  We had a gazillion signs in front of us everywhere we went.  Someone asked us if we were on our honeymoon at the bar.  We said no...she said wow if this is how you are now, just think when you really are on your honeymoon.  Tears filled our eyes...not only was it apparent to us, others could feel the bliss surrounding us as well.  We slow danced in the middle of a room while a guy was playing an acoustic set at a bar with everyone standing around.  Not a care in the world.  We went around the world at Epcot and embraced as the fireworks lit up the sky.  We celebrated our birthdays together and decided we would do a theme this year.  Get each other the craziest gift that pertains to the year that person was born.  What fun that was.  Music...music links us together.  Texts back and forth, listen to this by this person now.  All relevant to us and our relationship.  I am drained.  I cant go on anymore but will continue this love story on another day.  Until then...hello out there. *echo echo echo*

Well Hello You...

It has been a while...years as a matter of fact.  I have no excuse other than life getting in the way.  I suppose it is time to write again even if no one reads it.  That doesn't matter because it is my own thoughts, my own words and my own feelings.  I deleted a lot on here.  Only because they brought up memories of a time in my life that I have gotten over and moved on from.  I am not looking for an audience, just an outlet.  I will be back later when I can elaborate more with my ramblings.