Spreading The Disease

I stole this from another site I am on...this is what they do when there is nothing to blog about.

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss...was a kiss goodbye, forever
2. I am listening to...my fan spinning around and around
3. I talk...like a little girl with a slight country accent
4. I love...my son
5. My friends...are very few and worth everything to me
6. My first real kiss...was something I will never forget
7. The number seven is missing because...ummm I dunno
8. Love is...something vary rare
9. Marriage is...something that takes hard work
10. Somewhere, someone is thinking...whatever crosses their mind
11. I'll always...be true to myself
12. I have a secret crush...are you kidding me, after what I just went through
13. The last time I cried was because...I stubbed my pinky toe on the steps :(
14. My cell phone...drives me crazy
15. When I wake up in the morning...I brush my teeth
16. Before I go to bed I...brush my teeth
17. Right now I am thinking about...how much crap I have to do for my trip
18. Babies are...miracles
19. I get on Myspace...when I have nothing better to do
20. Today I...went to lunch and coffee with someone
21. Tonight I will...be having a game night party here with a bunch of friends and family
22. Tomorrow I will be...finishing up my packing for the trip, we leave Monday AHHH
23. I really want...to SLEEP!

Spread the disease...post this on your blog with your own very interesting answers.

If You Forget Me

I want you to know one thing.

You know how this is:

if I look at the crystal moon,

at the red branch of the

slow autumn at my window,

if I touch near the fire

the impalpable ashor

the wrinkled body of the log,

everything carries me to you,

as if everything that exists,

aromas, light, metals,

were little boats that sail

toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now, if little by little

you stop loving me

I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly you forget me

do not look for me,

for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,

the wind of banners

that passes through my life,

and you decide to leave me at the shore

of the heart where I have roots,

remember that on that day, at that hour,

I shall lift my arms

and my roots will set off

to seek another land.

But if each day, each hour,

you feel that you are destined for me

with implacable sweetness,

if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me,

ah my love, ah my own,

in me all that fire is repeated,

in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,

my love feeds on your love, beloved,

and as long as you live

it will be in your arms without leaving mine

By: Pablo Neruda

Father's Day

What a wonderful day it was today. Gorgeous weather and a day to celebrate with our Dad. Anyone who knows me knows I am a daddy's girl to heart. My Dad means everything in the world to me. He is an extraordinary man who devotes his life to his family. I am so fortunate to have been brought into such a loving and nurturing family. Growing up I was spoiled rotten since I was the baby of the family and I still am to this day. LOL My Dad has taught and showed me so many things about life. If I could grow up to be half the person he is I would be happy. He shared a marriage with my Mom for 50 years before she passed, he helped raise 5 wonderful children and he strives every day dedicating himself to his career. At 77 he is still working at the company he has been with for over 40 years and I don't think will ever retire. He is a graduate from Duke University as well as an inductee in the Hall of Fame there for diving. To this day he still amazes me with his talent, competing in the World Masters competition doing one and a half somersaults off the diving board among many other tricks. He is the world master champion and will be competing in Long Island, NY in August to maintain his title. His compassion, genuine nature and just him period makes me the proudest daughter ever to have a Dad like him. Today we had all of the family over...made tons of food, played games and shared wonderful memories. I am so blessed with everything I have in my life and will never forget that! Just remember to celebrate your Dad and Mom every day of their life because once they are gone, you will never get that time back again.

*Above is a picture of my Dad with a few of his gold medals and beside him is his picture that is displayed in the Hall of Fame at Duke! :)

Damaged

Sometimes it takes someone damaging every part of you mentally and emotionally for you to wake up and realize that you are better than that! People can be so mean spirited to a point of just being downright nasty. It is as if they enjoy watching someone else fall to pieces in front of them. It is the thrill of feeling like they have a power over you and your life. It is because they are not happy with theirself so they feel the need to make you miserable as well.

Not anymore will you treat me or make me feel like that...

Delusional

Lying in bed staring at the ceiling fan spinning around and around.

I get dizzy by the whirlwind of thoughts dancing through my mind.

Pictures of you flicker in and out of each spin as I try to get a clear image of your face.

Are you real?

Maybe I am daydreaming of the person I thought you were.

Maybe I am delusional.

At this point who really knows.

I try to get a grasp on these thoughts and feelings that flood my body.

Nothing works.

It is you that keeps consuming me.

Life can be so overrated at times.

Is true love even real?

I thought it was until now.

Lying in bed I watch every memory flicker by of what I thought was real,

as it continues to spin around and around in total chaos.

Misunderstood

I thought I knew you...

guess I misunderstood

I thought you were genuine...

guess I misunderstood

I thought you were honest...

guess I misunderstood

I thought you had a heart...

guess I misunderstood

I thought you turned into the person I always knew you could be and wanted to be...

guess I misunderstood

I thought you kept promises...

guess I misunderstood

I thought you were happy...

guess I misunderstood

I thought you were accepting...

guess I misunderstood

I thought I could be proud of you...

guess I misunderstood

I thought I could believe in you...
guess I misunderstood

I thought you had clarity...
guess I misunderstood

I thought when you got down on one knee and placed a ring on my finger, it was forever...
guess I misunderstood

I thought you knew me...
guess I misunderstood