Delusional

Lying in bed staring at the ceiling fan spinning around and around.

I get dizzy by the whirlwind of thoughts dancing through my mind.

Pictures of you flicker in and out of each spin as I try to get a clear image of your face.

Are you real?

Maybe I am daydreaming of the person I thought you were.

Maybe I am delusional.

At this point who really knows.

I try to get a grasp on these thoughts and feelings that flood my body.

Nothing works.

It is you that keeps consuming me.

Life can be so overrated at times.

Is true love even real?

I thought it was until now.

Lying in bed I watch every memory flicker by of what I thought was real,

as it continues to spin around and around in total chaos.